Date: Tue, 1 Jul 2008 22:52:58 EDT From: Wacko1900@aol.com Subject: i lost, but i won 4 If you are not old enough to read this, please do not do so. Please email with me comments I have gotten lots of great feedback, keep it coming! We left off when I blew Tyler for the first time and now it is winter vacation. Part 4 Two days after blowing Tyler for the first time, I am sitting on a bus going from the airport in San Juan to the pool where we were going to swim at about two hours away. I was deadly tired and very cranky. I was up all night in the car with my friend going to the airport for our 6AM flight. I did not sleep much on the flights to San Juan. I did NOT want to swim after all of the traveling. On top of it all, my mind was racing a million miles a second about what I did with Tyler two nights ago. My thoughts took over my emotions and went in no particular order. "Wow, I just cheated on my girlfriend. Why don't I feel guilty? What is wrong with me? I never in a million years thought I would cheat on someone. Who am I? What has happened to me? Tyler also just cheated on his girlfriend. I wonder how he feels about this. I wonder what is going through his head." "Oh my God! I feel like I love Tyler. I have never loved anyone before, especially a boy. I have never felt anything more than just lust for a man. I can't believe I made that bet. I can't believe he let me blow him. Man his dick tasted so good. I want to do it again. What if he doesn't talk to me ever again? What if he really didn't want me to suck his dick? Man I miss him so much. I miss hanging out with him all the time, playing ping-pong, and of course jerking off with him and now blowing him the most of all." All of those thoughts and hundreds more filled my head all throughout the bus ride and the one hour that I swam that night in Puerto Rico. I was freaking out and very worried about my future with Tyler. Not once did I worry or think about my future with Jamie. As I said, I was not myself. I am not the type of person who would cheat on someone. I must truly be in love with Tyler. I finally told myself to calm down because I would make myself sick if I thought about this the entire month off from school. After a good night's rest that night, I was finally able to relax and have a great time in Puerto Rico. Of course I thought about Tyler a lot, but nowhere near as much as I had the first night. I was back on campus extremely early, January 3, for swim practices. Tyler and everyone else would not be back to campus until either Saturday the 19th or Sunday the 20th. I unfortunately did not contact Tyler very often over winter break. He went somewhere on vacation with some friends for a few weeks so I did not want to bother him with text messages. I remember on Saturday January 12, I texted him and asked him what day he was coming back. He texted back and told me he was coming back on Saturday. I texted back and told him I missed him. He responded with, "I miss you too." The next day I talked to him through instant messenger. I asked him how his vacation was going. He told me it was good. He also made fun of me a little bit because my favorite football team, the Dallas Cowboys lost that day in the playoffs. That was about the only two times I talked to Tyler throughout the five weeks of winter vacation. The next week dragged on very slowly. I could not wait to see Tyler again. I had a home swim meet the day that Tyler was due to arrive. My swim meet started at 3pm. Jamie was due to arrive at about noon. I was able to see her for a little while before I went to my swim meet. Tyler told me he was going to be here at about 4pm, while I was at my meet. My meet did not finish until about 6:30pm. Then I went out to dinner with Jamie and her father. Dinner took forever because it was so busy. Finally, we got back to campus at about 9:30. When we got back, Jamie went to her room to get some things and I went to the bathroom. When I got out, Jamie was outside Tyler's room talking to him. I was so excited to finally see him. "Hey man, what's up?" Tyler said as we shook hands. "Not much, just got back from dinner. What are you doing tonight?" "I'm just gonna stay here and unpack and relax. I got Guitar Hero for Christmas. We will have to play." "We can play tomorrow night. I'm going to go watch a movie and hang out with Jamie tonight." "Alright. I'll see you later man." The next day was Sunday. By then, almost everyone from my floor was back. I had to give a floor meeting that night. After the floor meeting, I went to Tyler's room to hang out. We watched the football game that was on. After the New York Giants beat the Green Bay Packers, we played Guitar Hero. The same thing happened in Guitar Hero as does when we play ping-pong. Tyler and I are pretty much evenly matched. We played that until about 11:30 or 12, and then went back to my room. I didn't want to be up too late because the first day of the semester was tomorrow and I needed to be up at 8 to work at 8:30. We were both lying in my bed and Tyler was flipping through the stations. We watched the rest of "School of Rock". Then we flipped through the sports stations and ended up watching "Sex With Sue" at about 2AM. (How ironic) It was now near 3AM. "Justin, I can tell something is on your mind. What's up?" "What? Nothing. Just watching TV." "Come on man. I can tell something is bothering you. I KNOW you. You can tell me what's wrong." "I'm fine. Nothing is wrong, Mom." After about an hour of him pestering me on and off about it, he finally said, "Are you thinking about what we did before I left?" "Um, maybe." "Yeah, well you probably want to do it again, don't you? I really liked it and kind of want it again." After a long silence I said, "Of course I do, but I also don't want to because I want to do more to you like feel you up and make out with you because... I like men." "Well I kind of figured that much after you gave me that amazing blow job. But you like women too, right?" "Yeah, I am bisexual. You really liked it? What was going through your head over break?" "Just, wow, I can't believe a guy sucked my dick and I really liked it." "Yeah, well my mind went crazy. I feel like I love you. It scares the shit out of me because I have never loved a man before." "It's probably because we hang out all of the time." "Well, I find you really cute, and I really want to make out with you and more." "By more do you mean sex?" "No, I'm not sure I want anal sex yet." "Well, I'm attracted to you too." "What?" Was all I could say. I was in complete shock. "Yeah, I think I'm bi-curious." "Wow." "I can understand if you don't want to suck my dick now." "Why would I not want to suck your dick again? I want to do it even more now that you said you are bi-curious." "Alright then, let me go to the bathroom and then we can do it." It was about 4:30 in the morning at this point. So much for going to bed at a decent time. This was totally going to be worth it though. "Is it ok if I feel your body all over while blowing you and make out with you?" "You can feel me up but I will have to think about making out. I will probably cave in eventually and do it. I don't want to do it tonight though." "That's fine. I completely understand. I want to swallow tonight. Let me know when you are going to cum so that I'm ready." "Wow, you are going to swallow? Ok." I then started stroking his dick through the outside of his shorts. I took my time because I wanted this to last forever. I started to take off his shorts and go under his shirt and feel his chest and pecs. They weren't muscular. There was a little bit of fat, but I love it because I had that fat too. His stomach and chest were so smooth. He felt amazing. I so badly wanted to kiss him, but I respect him too much so I fought my urge and stuck to making out with his dick instead. I did very similar to what I did the first time. I paid a lot of attention to the tip. I also decided to lick his testicles. He seemed to really like that. He moaned and seemed like he was in a little bit of pain when I would lick his testicles. "Are you ok?" I asked. "Yeah, that just feels a little different and weird." "Ok. Sorry, I won't do it again." I started to lick up and down the shaft and suck really hard at the tip. I would then go up and down on his shaft. "Ohhhhh yeeeeaahhh! Justin, that feels sooooo gooooood. Yeah, Justin. Take my dick. Suck me hard. Oh yes! Just like that." "Mmmmmmmm" I moaned to give a little vibration to his dick to make it feel better. "Wow, you really know how to suck dick, Justin." After maybe 10-15 minutes of intense sucking, Tyler finally said he was going to cum. I stayed on his dick for about thirty more seconds and then he exploded and shot two or three loads into my mouth. I immediately swallowed it. Tyler was now breathing very heavily and I grabbed a bottle of water to get rid of the cum taste in my mouth. "Wow. I swallowed." "Yeah, I can't believe you took it all. That was amazing! How did it taste?" "Not bad. I'm really surprised that I kind of like it." "Dude, that was so intense. I'm so tired. Holy shit, it is 5:15. I have to get up and get breakfast before my 9 o'clock class." "Yeah, well I have to be at work to make your breakfast at 8:30." "Ok, I will be there at like 8:40 so you can make my bagel and cream cheese. Good night man." "Good night." Wow! At about 8:40, I saw Tyler come to the line and I put his bagel in the toaster. "Hey man, what's up? I'm pretty tired." "Yeah, me too. I wonder why." I said back to him. We did not talk about what happened that night until I IMed him that Wednesday. "Hey, can you come down to my room I want to talk to you about Sunday night." "I can't right now. I have to finish this homework before 4. If it is about me making out with you, I decided that I don't want to. I have to be with my girlfriend. I love her. I don't want to leave that." "Ok." Was all I could say in return. I HATE having a serious conversation through the internet. That is why I wanted to talk to him in person about it. I wanted to say something like, "I had a really great time the other night. I want you to take your time with whatever we do. Since I have more experience with men than you do, I will ask you before I do anything. Like I want to cuddle with you sometime when we watch a movie. I will never do something sexual without asking you though." But no, he had to be an ASSHOLE and say that shit through IM. I was very noticeably upset the rest of that day. This IM happened at about 1:30PM. At swim practice people were asking me if I was ok and I said I was fine. They knew something was bothering me but didn't pester me about it. Of course Jamie knew I was upset too. I unfortunately wear my emotions on my sleeves and it is very easy to see when I am mad or happy. I told her it was nothing and she left it at that. I still played ping-pong with Tyler that night. He knew I was not acting myself but ignored. We only played one set instead our usual two or more sets because I was in such a pissy mood. Tyler went home that weekend to spend some time with his girlfriend. I was able to calm down and act normal the day after he decided he did not want to make out with me. I was obviously still upset, but I realized that I never expected him to say yes anyways. He came back Sunday and I asked him if he wanted to play ping-pong. He said that he would play with me as long as I wasn't grouchy like I was Wednesday. I then explained to him why I was upset. He told me that was why he thought I was upset. I then said I think it is best that we don't do anymore sexual things. Obviously we would still remain good friends, just no more sexual things. With someone as horny as Tyler, how long would this last? Could it possible last the rest of the semester? Only time would tell... That's all for tonight. Thank you for reading. Keep sending me emails with questions and comments. I love reading them. You can share your own stories too if you would like. I will post another story shortly.